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stuff and things
So a lot has happened in life since I last posted on here, I've been cheated on by the girl I thought I'd be with forever and that broke me. Because of that I started drinking again and ended up going to a few parties where I met another girl I thought I liked, we met up a lot at parties and even the pub, we were together for almost a year before things got bad and her father caught us in bed, he grabbed me by the throat and threatened to kill me, I didn't know what was up so I threw him into a wall and broke his face apart. When the police contacted me I thought Oh yeah another assault charge but I never expected what they told me next.
So the girl I had been going to the pub with was only 15... Which means she was only 14 when I first slept with her. I fell into such a state of depression because of it and tried killing myself, not that any of my friends know any of this.
So I ended up in jail for almost 3 years because of all this which as fucked up as it sounds was n the best thing
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a small insight to what goes on in my head
So lately i have been quite angry and stressed and just generally not myself and i really don't like it, but as it stands there is nothing i can change that cause for the first time in a long time the events unfolding around me are completely out of my control, and anyone that knows me knows that i like to take charge of all things around me, and when i can't i feel lost and stress out which brings me back to my main point.
So there is this girl, she's only 16, i haven't really known her that long, and i don't even know her that well but she means more to me then the moon, the stars, the earth and everything on it and i don't understand why...
she's so beautiful and sweet and innocent and i love her with all my heart but i'm not attracted to her, i look at her like a daughter, because as anyone that really knows me knows that Ashlyn isn't really my daughter.
Now the thing is this girl is dating a friend of mine, i know i should be happy for them, but i can't... i just can't, she is so
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this is my code of arms
so like seriously...what the fuck is going on in the world at the moment, everyone is hating on everyone, christchurch has had enough trouble lately without having to worry about its people turning on each other, especially our generation, come on people we are the future of this country, sit back and take a look at yourselves and ask yourself is this what you want our kids to grow up in???i know i sure as hell dont want to bring up a child in this country the way it is, with all the hate and violence around the place, fuck that shit man.and it all is starting from rumors, chinese whispers and people that have a problem with someone so they go and become spiteful and vindictive and try to ruin the other persons life.well i tell you what im fucking sick of it.i have some really amazing friends that are being put through hell at the moment because someone has been hurt, or lied to, or abused or whatever, and most of the shit that gets said about them isnt even close to being true.well it
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debgtksfv adn
so this is just part 1 of what is my current project, i wasn't gona put anything up till it was finished but some of this has been requested by somebody...seeing as it is about them and all...
Perception is an individuals way of seeing the things around them, it may not always make sense, it may not always be right but every person percieves things for their own wants and needs, the way their brain tells them it wants to see it.
I don't claim to be right, i don't expect anybody but me to comprehend what it is im about to tell, but this is my perception on he everyday events that happen around us that most of us are ignorant to, this is my view.
I notice things everyday, and more things as each day passes that most of us look at but generally don't notice, from something as small as a fake smile, to something as obvious as the warning signs of a broken home.
Maybe some of you notice and just choose ignorance, maybe some of you actually are just ignorant to it all, but that doesn't mean
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A light amongst darkness
In a world of endless darkness,
A world of lies, deceit and betrayal,
Lay a beautiful young woman, waiting,
Waiting for the pain of labour to end.
In a world of endless darkness,
A world of lies, deceit and betrayal,
A young man worked his fingers to the bone,
Knowing soon his love is about to have their first child.
In a world of endless darkness,
A world of lies, deceit and betrayal,
The beautiful young woman lays defeated,
Her new baby girl asleep in her arms.
In a world of endless darkness,
A world of lies, deceit and betrayal,
The young man stops what he's doing,
A feeling of great joy overcomes him.
In a world of endless darkness,
A world of lies, deceit and betrayal,
The young couple comes to a realization,
The world isn't as dark as they first thought.
In a world of endless darkness,
A world of lies, deceit and betrayal,
An old couple sits together knowing,
Knowing they brought joy into the world.
In a world of endless darkness,
A world of lies, deceit and betrayal,
An old coup
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still untitled
there are so many words in this world that are said,
yet the person saying them never really mean it,
words like always, promise, love and trust.
now to me trust is the most important of all these words,
and yet it is also the word i dislike the most,
maybe that is why i find it so damn important?
i just dont know.
my greatest flaw is that i trust people too much,
but now i'm stuck in a hard place,
because the one person i wish i could trust has made it clear to me that i CAN'T trust them,
and that hurts me in a way i have never hurt before.
when did life become such a concoction of bull shit?
gotta say im pretty much f**king over it aye.
over the last three years i have changed everything about who i was,
i never used to care about anybody and i didn't care who i had to use,
or walk all over to get what i wanted.
then i moved to christchurch and made some amazing friends,
and i have realized that if i stayed the person i was that i was gonna lose everyone i now hold close to my heart,
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why?
The question ''why'' is something that everybody is asked or has asked another and yet everyday the question goes un-answered.
But why?
Why is it everytime i say no more and leave i swear to myself that this was the last time, and then she contacts me and i cant help but come running back, knowing that nothing has changed and knowing that it's going to end the same way, but i just cant stop myself?
Why don't i ever stand up for myself and tell her i cant take it anymore? All i ever did was love her and for the shortest time i actually thought she felt the same, i didn't ever think i could be so blind to the truth.
Why is it everytime i ask ''why'' i either get yelled at, abused, told to get fucked or just plain ignored? You would think that by now i would have learned that it's best to let go and remove myself from the situation, but i just cant.
Why can't i just stop myself from caring about her?
Why did i let myself get this attahced to somebody that breaks my heart just by being a m
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a martyr's story
they once described me as a martyr,
loving and care free, free from the pain
of ownership and degradation,
if only they knew the truth.
a troubled child alone and begotten,
attacked and tormented
from the start of his empty life,
until the day 'they' came.
i never knew who they were,
and i doubt i ever will,
forever repeating in my head,
i believe these words to never end.
wisdom they said is knowledge over power,
be thy friend and deliver me,
deliver me from this fear and loathing,
a martyr's story is still unwritten.
his life changed in the blink of an eye,
overnight from sinner to saint,
feared by some, revered by most,
the life of a martyr is not always an easy one.
but sacrifices must be made for the greater good,
for many a year he served this greater gift,
giving all he could to those without,
a gift for all who need of him.
free from the dramas of torment,
that his old life had granted him,
life is a sacrifice for all to behold,
unaware of the true form of darkness.
tonight a w
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not all things in life are handed to us to work for your rewards make the sweet taste of victory so much sweeter.
love is a given, not to be taken for granted. love with all your heart and live your life with no regrets.
Translation
لا يتم تسليم كل شيء في الحياة بالنسبة لنا للعمل من أجل المكافآت الخاصة بك جعل الطعم الحلو للانتصار حتى أحلى بكثير. الحب هو معطى ، لا
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A Lovers Farewell
Freedom is something to earn
Sought out for by the strong
The weak at heart are left behind
Never to know the joyous embrace.
Walking in shadows you shall never find
The light inside that guides your soul
A broken warrior lost alone
Inside the hourglass of fear
Destined to be forgotten in time
He cries out to the heavens
"Free me from this void in hell!"
As he falls to his knees in defeat
The truly unexpected happens
A sirens song so crisp and clear
Beautiful, it frees his mind
Body and soul warming through
Freedom he has earned in death.
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love holds no bounds
Being with you feels not but like a dream.
It seems to good to be true.
The thought of being without you makes me want to scream.
Every time i close my eyes all i see is you.
Your love to me is that of which i never thought to see.
If there is anything i could do to make you happy baby you know i would try.
I never thought this day would come...i never dreamed we would be.
If i have to spend another day without you i know im going to cry...
I love you so much heather and im just sorry that it has taken me this long to realize that...
You are that twinkle in my eye.
You are the sun in my sky.
You are what i dream at night.
I will always love you with all of my might..
Forever and always
I will always love you
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hitlers brothers
Litte boy, tries to hide,
From the fire in his backyard.
Burning cross, white cloth,
It's the second time this year.
Hitler's brothers are still alive,
They're wearing everyday disguises.
A woman runs, for asylum,
She's the only one of her kind in this neighborhood.
She knows who they were,
They don't believe a word,
The cops just turn their heads to protect their friends.
Hitler's brothers are still alive,
Their army seems to grow in size,
Hitler's brothers are on the rise,
They're wearing everyday disguises.
...In camouflage or business suits.
Another man, bound and gagged,
Tied upon the railroad tracks.
At nine p.m. the B&M (Boston & Maine)
Rolled across his yellow skin
Hitler's brothers are still alive,
Their army seems to grow in size,
Hitler's brothers are on the rise,
They're wearing everyday disguises.
In camouflage or business suits,
Checkered aprons, combat boots,
Time to let those feelings go,
Hatred only kills your souls.
She Can't Feel Anything Anymore
She was on the floor
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nineth of never
Been waiting for and end in a life filled with all those little stories
Our last encounter still stings like alcohol
And all the stones and prison bars that stood in the way of my amends
Forgive me
I know you killed for me, you're sailing with the rock,
Promise you'll come for me this nineth of never will bring you home
Say what you want, say what you need cause tonight is your last chance to reach me
Hope and love seem to be a wasted in this mortal reality
Say we'll meet again on the nineth of never
There won't be a heart to break this time
And all the souls of fallen men won't stand in the way of our love again
Forgive me
I know you killed for me, you're sailing with the rock
Promise you'll come for me this nineth of never, our lord will guide you home
Say what you want, say what you need cause tonight is your last chance to reach me.
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The ghosts of my past
Looking in the face of the victims i made
A family left behind, all in dispair
Not knowing what to do at the loss of a father
Will they ever find him, i don't think so
I put him in a place no one will ever think.
Murder in the first degre thats what they called it
Riddled with bullet holes thats how i left him
Sorrow is something i shalt never feel
The ghosts of my past are back to haunt me.
I never knew the guy, si why do i feel guilt?
Evil's what they call us, thats why we band together
We call it an organisation, but they call it a gang
I was just a lost child but they took me in
I'm only a teen, but i've ruined my entire life.
Murder in the first degre thats what they called it
Riddled with stab wounds thats how i left her
Forgiveness is something i will never have
The ghosts of my past are back to haunt me.
I thought they would protect me, but the fuckers gave me up
Now i'm doing time cause they wanted the reward
They gave me up so i rattered  them out too
We all got put
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So a lot has happened in life since I last posted on here, I've been cheated on by the girl I thought I'd be with forever and that broke me. Because of that I started drinking again and ended up going to a few parties where I met another girl I thought I liked, we met up a lot at parties and even the pub, we were together for almost a year before things got bad and her father caught us in bed, he grabbed me by the throat and threatened to kill me, I didn't know what was up so I threw him into a wall and broke his face apart. When the police contacted me I thought Oh yeah another assault charge but I never expected what they told me next.

So the girl I had been going to the pub with was only 15... Which means she was only 14 when I first slept with her. I fell into such a state of depression because of it and tried killing myself, not that any of my friends know any of this.
So I ended up in jail for almost 3 years because of all this which as fucked up as it sounds was n the best thing for me.
But now I'm out, my parole is over and probation is controlling my life.
Finding a job is hard, finding a house is hard, but at least I have found me a nice girl, yes she may only be 18 but she is amazing and means the world to me, even if she is my brother's ex fiancée.
But what is next in life... Stuff and things

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